This post is dedicated to all the other bloggers out there who secretly just want to write all the details of your life, but think better of it every time you go to write something. You gotta let it out once in a while.

Here is a laundry list of a bunch of stuff that you may or may not know about me.

- I am a freshman in music education at the University of Illinois.
- I am having trouble adjusting to college life. I haven't really made any friends yet, and I go home every chance I get.
- I completely failed to practice for my clarinet playing final, but I managed an A, with a reed that I had never played on before.
- I don't like my roommate. I think that she and all of the people she talks to on the phone are deaf, because she has to repeat everything she says twice, and every time the person she is talking to says something, she says "Heh?" really loudly and it sounds like a goose honking.
- I will soon be the treasurer of the Campus Vegetarian Society.
- I don't like drinking. It's not a moral thing. I don't think there is anything wrong with drinking (within reason). It's just that when I drink I get very uncomfortable and anxious and feel like I need to MOVE I need to GO SOMEWHERE I need to RETREAT.
- I also don't like caffeine, and I don't drink pop or coffee. It makes me feel like my chest will explode.
- I have to go to bed before midnight, or I will begin having suicidal thoughts.
- In one hour, I have to go turn in my marching band uniform.
- I am madly in love with my boyfriend, but I don't talk about it much on the blog. This is because I am 18 and he is 15, and I don't feel like defending us.
- I was only recently able to have normal, platonic friendships with boys. I read in Dr. Spock that when a girl is about 10 or so, she begins to be vaguely aware of her sexuality, and her first sexual feelings are for her father, and it is in repressing these feelings that she learns how to deal with and control her sexuality. I grew up without a father. So it took me a little longer.
- I grew up without a father. He left when I was four, and he died when I was nine.
- I don't believe in the concept of being "genuine" or "pretentious." Everything is pretense. What we call "sincerity" is really just very skilled pretense. All behaviors are learned, so there is no such thing as "acting natural."
- I call myself an agnostic, but I only say that so that I seem more open-minded to religious people. I am really an atheist. I mean, I can't profess to know enough about science to really explain where we DID come from, but logic dictates that it wasn't from God. When I figured this out, I got really scared and decided that I was just agnostic, because who knows? Maybe there is a God? But I'm not scared by that anymore.
- I have two dogs, and they are the cutest things in the universe.
- I am really glad that Bunny posted two proper entries recently. Since she has been getting closer to matrimony, she has been neglecting her audience.
- I am doing really well in my aural skills class.
- I am coming home this weekend even though I only have two weeks until the end of class. I will be judging the speech meet at Naperville Central.
- I am completely lacking in work ethic. I spend more time blogging than I spend practicing and studying combined.
- I was very angry when I discovered that the cable provider here in Urbana doesn't have the Travel Channel. My two favorite shows are Stranded with Cash Peters and No Reservations with Anthony Bourdain.
- Last weekend I was very excited that I might get to go to a party. It would have been the first party I've been to since I got to school, aside from Marching Illini parties which I am only invited to because I am in MI, but the person throwing the party forgot to call me. I felt really stupid for being upset about it, which is why I didn't write about it at first.
- I will hopefully be switching roommates at the end of the semester, but the girl who will be my new roommate isn't answering my e-mails. I'm getting really pissed off about it, because I need to file for a room change and stuff, but I can't do that until she lets me know what's going on.

posted at 3:34 PM by Alison

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