I had a small breakdown when I left home at the end of winter break, but then I was okay. My new roommie is fun, and she talks to me, so I finally have human contact here. My first week back at school went okay. I only cried, like ... twice.

But then I went home for the weekend, and now that I'm back, I desparately don't want to be here.

Ethan is pretty much the only person I know with whom I have a comfortable, normal, healthy relationship. Being at school and away from any fellow humans has destroyed my social skills. I was too scared to actually go see any of my old friends from high school over break because I didn't have any clue what I would say to them. I've pretty much lost the ability to have a casual conversation with anybody, new acquaintance or old friend. Everything is awkward all the time.

And now I can't even write a normal blog entry anymore.

Fuck.

posted at 5:01 PM by Alison

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